Rough day

So the last two days have been interesting. by that i mean very challenging.

I had a rough night of sleep Sunday which probably didn't help my day get off to a great start.
I got lost on my way in to work, and it wasn't fun. I felt like such a flippin' tourist and wayy out of my comfort zone.

After working at the shop all day (tearing out shelves and the leftover pieces of the wall) Jan took me shopping at a place called Tesco's (it's really close to Jewel or Dominicks). For some reason walking around tesco's really caught me off guard and I really felt insecure being there. Everything was so close to being at home yet it all stood out as completely foreign.

After that I was supposed to go to a youth and childrens worker meeting, but due to a fluke in texting here I missed a ride to the meeting and didn't go.

All that was really frustrating. I'm a world away from anything familliar and while i'm ok with it there are times where it is REALLY unsettling. I really miss home. I know I'm called to be here, but I don't like this stage. No close friends, and I feel like I'm stumbling to find my feet and fall into a rutine.

The honeymoon phase is over and coming into the fact that this is really happening is hard. Verity came back last night and she saw I wasn't having a good day and we had a long talk about it which was helpful. But I miss my friends! I miss the silly moments, the serious moments, the dull moments. In coming here I see how much I've changed over the last 6 years and a lot of that is from God, yes, but also through godly friends and I really miss you all.

Oak Park Vineyard is still MY HOME church. I may be gone, but it doesn't mean i don't want to know about life back there. I want to hear the funny, the silly, even the boring news from home. cause right now I don't exactly feel connected here...or there. I do want to know that I have friends who think of me...

I may not be the worlds greatest communicator, but I will try and keep in touch as best as I can. I miss you all so much and I can stress how much i want to still feel conneceted to home. I really want to call you and hear how you're doing in a more personal way than through a cold keyboard, but I left my cell (with all the numbers!) in the states! Email me and let's setup a time to chat over the phone...

Time for supper. There is so much more I want to say, but for now I miss home and I dearly want to know what's happening there. Ian, how did you do it? wow...
Paul